I never wanted to get married, then I met your father. He was so sweet and funny and all around amazing, we dated for awhile and then... I wanted to get married. I had never wanted kids, but then when your father and I had been married for awhile... I wanted to be a mom. But when I heard your heartbeat for the first time, it was instantaneous. I wanted you. I couldn't wait to see you and hold you and be your mom.
These first few weeks have been hard, but your father is helpful and great with you, and your grandma S helps out a lot too. I am getting help from my doctor also, because I want to be better for you. When you grow up I want you to only remember a happy mom that you can depend on. I want to be the best mother I can be for you. I am sure I will make mistakes, but I will try not to make too many. And at some point in time you will not like me very much, but that will just mean that I am doing my job. Growing up is hard, making decisions that will influence who you will be for the rest of your life is hard. I want you to be able to come to me for advice, but I want you to make your own decisions. In 18 or so years when you are ready to go to college I want you to feel secure enough to know that you are a great person who can handle anything life throws at you.
Basically I want the world for you, I just thought you should know that.
So sweet! It's funny, the minute you become a Mom, all the things you want for yourself go away and all we focus on is what we want for our littles :)
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